Yep...

I'm not going to weigh myself today. I ate terrible this week and I know the number can't be good! I'm going to try hard this week to do better.

It's so very hard when there's bad food in the house. My weaknesses this week have been: sharp white cheese with crackers, ice cream, and Lays potato chips. Ugh! It's like I can't get enough of them. I also went out to eat twice and didn't make healthy choices.

I'm at work right now and I'm missing Logan so much :( its hard, especially because I get to spend so much time with him on the weekend - monday just sucks! So I'm blogging on my phone, so my grammar probably isn't the best :) my lunch break is almost over only 2ish more hours of work!!!

What I expected.

I weighed in this morning and I expected it...a small gain.

I thought it would be fun and different to actually start taking pics of the scale :) That way each week I can see how it changed!

Monday January 23rd, 2012

Last week I think I was 172.9 - so I'm only up 0.8 of a single pound. I'd say that's pretty good for what I ate on last Monday. I didn't even mention how I've been baking. It's all from my wonderful new cook book though "Eat What You Love." I baked some PB chocolate chip cookies and also some raisin oatmeal bars. Yum!

We are supposed to go out to dinner tonight with Misbah, she wants to take me somewhere for my Birthday :) I chose to go to The Rock! I love that place! They have the best pizza, yummmmy. I've already decided that I'm just going to eat half of my personal sized pizza and take the rest home. I usually never eat my left overs - James gets them :)

It's Monday and I'm not wanting to go to work...I'd much rather stay home and play with Logan. I hope this week goes by fast!

He Crawls!

Logan has finally started crawling! It almost makes me sad knowing how fast he is growing up. The other night I was feeding him his bottle, we were just starting at each other and I almost started crying! I can't believe how much I love him. I don't even think words can explain it...maybe it's a "Mommy" thing.

I love how excited he gets when I walk into the room and he sees me.
I love how when we are playing on the floor he will come cuddle me and then go back to playing, and he keeps doing that. Like he wants to make sure I'm not going to get up and leave.
I love how we snuggle right before he goes down for a nap or bedtime.
I love after I give him a bath and I'm drying him off he looks into my eyes like "Thanks for the bath, Mommy."

James and I went out to eat on Monday at Sweet Tomatoes. It was really yummy. I ate way too much! I had a salad, a cup of cheese broccoli soup, a baked potato with sour cream and cheese, a small dish of mac and cheese, some blue jello, apple cobbler, and a little tiny dark chocolate frozen yogurt ice cream cone. WOW! I don't think my weight is going to be down tomorrow. It might even be up a little bit. I also have NOT been working out :( I just can't find the energy to do it...I really want to, but I don't. Other than Monday I have been eating good and drinking lots of water. I don't expect a loss tomorrow but that's okay because I still can't believe how much I lost last week. That makes up for this week!

Seriously?

I weighed myself this morning and I almost fell off the scale I was so shocked!

Last week: 179.1
This week: 172.9

I lost 6.2lbs!

WHAT?!? I even weighed myself twice to make sure it was for certain. I've never lost that much - even when I was doing Weight Watchers. Now, I am kinda county points/tracking. I use my P+ calculator to make sure nothing I'm eating is crazy high in points. I only worked out on Monday last week. I don't expect much of anything next Monday.

So I reached my first goal - losing 5-10lbs before Valentine's Day! I'm still going to shoot for 10lbs before then. I have 4 more weigh ins before V-day so as long as I lose 1lb per week I'll meet that goal :)

I can't wait to be out of the 170's and on my way into the 160's! Yeee-haw!

Our Future Bundle...

I've been thinking about our next baby lately. Maybe it's because so many people I know right now are pregnant! I don't want Logan and the next little one to be too far apart. 3 years max is ideal. I was thinking that we'd start trying sometime next year, maybe January-March we can start trying and see what happens. I'd like to have a 2013 baby, that way they are only 2 years apart. But if it takes longer that's fine :)

I was thinking about doing a Very Hungry Caterpillar theme for Logan's 1st birthday party! I think it would be super cute and fun. Sarah is going to come over tomorrow and help me brainstorm some ideas. 4 months is going to go by so fast, and I want to make sure everything turns out just right!

Some family friends (The Guynes) offered to let us throw his party at their house. That way both my dad and mom/Dave could attend and not feel weird. Where if we have it at my dad's house (where we live) my mom/Dave will 100% not come. I'd like to include them in his 1st birthday. I think it's something really special. At first my mom said we could just take Logan out to dinner and celebrate with them, but that's not as fun as a birthday party! I'm sure my mom/Dave will still feel a little weird, but things are probably going to be weird. My mom and dad haven't talked for awhile now. Even when I was in the hospital having Logan my dad and mom made sure that they weren't there at the same time. It's hard for me, and still makes me sad. I wish we could go on family vacations like we did with James' parents.

I'm going to weigh in tomorrow morning. It's my 1st weigh in this time around. I'm hoping I can stick to it. Now that it's the new year and May seems SO close...I really would like to look better for his party.

It snowed a little bit today. Less than an inch, but it was pretty and it always puts me in a good mood. But then when it stops I get sad and I want it to snow some more! I took Logan out in the snow for like 2 minutes, just long enough to take a couple pictures. The snow was really coming down and I didn't want him getting too cold!

"What is this cold stuff?"

Fun in the snow!

And just because he's cute...

8 month update!

Wow, 8 months old already! I can't believe it, pretty soon I'm going to be posting pictures from his 1st birthday party!!!

Here are his monthly pictures/stats:

Newborn, 6lbs 9oz - 19 1/2 inches long.

1 month old, 7lbs 10oz - 21 inches long.

2 months old, 9lbs 15oz - 22 1/2 inches long.

3 months old, 11lbs 6oz - 24 inches long.

4 months old, 13lbs 3oz - 25 inches long.

5 months old, 14lbs 7oz - 26 1/2 inches long.

6 months old, 15lbs - 26 1/2 inches long.

7 months old, 15lbs 14oz - 27 inches long.

8 months old, 16lbs 2oz - 27 inches long.

He's not looking at the camera, but this picture shows how much he's growing - even if his stats don't show it! He's sitting more upright and always wanting to be on the move!

At 8 months Logan can:

• drink water from a sippy cup
• feed himself Baby Mum-mums and Puffs
• play independently on the floor
• pull himself up (this just happened tonight)!!!!
• sleep through the night 10-12 hours
• scoot all over - I will set him down in one spot and in 1 minute he's across the room. Either by rolling or scooting backwards and spinning around.
  
• get up on his knees and rock (he's almost there)!
• walk around with James' and my help - he loves doing this, and would probably do it all day long if I let him.

I think he's going to be crawling here really soon. He seems so close! He can go forward, he gets on his tummy, tucks in his knees, arms down by his side - and pushes with his legs. He moves! But he's not using his arms to help him move forward. He's such a smart boy, I love him so much!!!

So far, so good...

This week I've done really good. I know it's only been 5 days of eating well - I have my whole life ahead of me. But I like to take it one day at a time. This is really hard for me considering all the bad/junk food we have in this house. We live with my dad - and he eats whatever he wants, so there is always bad food tempting me! I worked out on Monday, but that was the only day :( I need to try and do better with that. I feel so much better when I'm exercising.

James and I were out shopping and I wanted to buy naughty food; but I didn't.
We went to see "We bought a Zoo" yesterday and I wanted popcorn; but I didn't get any. Instead we had Subway after and I got a 6 inch turkey/ham.

Tonight I baked some yummy 3 point chocolate chip bars - they *of course* don't taste like the real thing, but they are still good and satisfy a chocolate craving. I wanted another one, but I'm going to be good and just eat that one tonight.

I'm very anxious to weigh myself on Monday. I've been thinking about it, and I'd really like to re-join Weight Watchers. I just feel more committed when I actually go to the meetings and someone else weighs me in.

We have a 3 day weekend this week (MLK birthday on Monday) and the weather people call for snow starting tomorrow night through Tuesday! I don't like getting my hopes up, but I'd really like to see some snow! I think Logan would, too!

Speaking of Logan; he is finally rash free now! I fed him some apple, pear, banana combo for breakfast on Monday morning. He's had all 3 of those fruits separate with no reactions - but Tuesday morning I was undressing him and he had a terrible scary rash all over his legs, arms, neck, and cheeks! I started crying and called my mom. I sent her a picture of it (she was at work) and said "Wow, that's really bad!" So I took him into hid doctor. His doctor said it was from something he ate/touched in the last 24 hours. I said nothing has changed - I've fed him foods he's already had - no new shampoos, soaps, detergents, diapers...nothing in the last 24 hours. So I kept looking around and thinking...I washed all his clothes that came in contact with him - I vacuumed like crazy. And then I thought "What else was in that fruit?" I looked and it said there was "Citric Acid" in there. I read before somewhere that introducing citrus foods to baby's before they were 1 was a good idea. And thanks to Sarah - she found an article that stated that. I'm about 99% sure that's what caused it. Unless he's suddenly allergic to the dogs or cat? There is nothing else I can think of! It took 4 days for his rash to be gone. It was so scary looking :( It didn't cause him any discomfort and his mood was still the same. I just hated looking at it!

I can't believe that Logan is 8 months old now! I haven't taken his 8 month pictures yet (yesterday because of the rash) and today because he had a really short nap and was kinda grumpy tonight - not good for taking pictures! I'm hoping tomorrow we'll be able to get some. I weighed him again tonight and he's still at 16lbs 2oz. I'm hoping that's okay! He's only gained 4oz since last month. He's around 27 inches long - not sure what he was last month, but pretty sure it was 27 or close to. I know in my baby book there is a time where I didn't grown as much, I think it's normal - I hope at least! I'm so excited for his 1st birthday party. I have so many ideas I can't wait!

Oh my FATNESS!

I got on the scale today after avoiding it for some time.

WOW....

.....

Okay, I knew it was going to be bad. I have been eating everything in sight and lots of it. With Thanksgiving, Christmas, my Birthday - I said "Who cares?" And just indulged.

My current weight is 179.1.

Today I have drank lots of water, ate healthy meals/snacks, and even worked out on the elliptical for 20 minutes. I feel very serious about this now. Logan is going to be 8 months old on Thursday - that means he is only FOUR months away from being ONE YEARS OLD! I would love to be smaller before his Birthday. I know it's going to be hard, but I've done it once before and I feel like I can do it again.

My mini goal: 5-10lbs by February 14th.
Short term goal: 25-30lbs by Logan's Birthday May 12th.
Long term goal: 40lbs by July 12th.

I'm unsure about rejoining Weight Watchers. I don't like the idea of having to drive out to the meetings by myself every Wednesday. I'm still thinking about it - I know it would help me and if my insurance still covers it I guess I should do it.

GAME FACE: ON!

A little vent...

This is my blog so I feel like I have free reign of what I say.
That being said; I would like to say how much I hate my job. I cannot stand about 95% of the people I work with. They are all super cliquey and don't seem genuine. There are only about 5 people there who I think actually tried to get to know me and talk to me daily. I almost feel like I'm in high school again.
Don't even get me started on the principal. I feel like he has it out for me. He didn't even wish me a Happy Birthday when it was my Birthday. My previous boss even sent me an e-mail on my Birthday to give me wishes. I guess everyone is different about how they express their feelings.
I have a feeling I'm going to be stuck at this school forever. I'm not even sure I will have a job come September next year. Which is really scary...I don't know if we could afford me not working. The main reason I'm working now is because of the extra money (of course) and I also get really good insurance. Without my insurance we'd have to pay out of pocket each month - which would set us back more money.

Today I was thinking about when I'd want to start trying for another baby. At first I was thinking maybe at the end of this year (Logan would be close to 2 after baby was born). But I think I'm going to wait until he is actually closer to 2 before we start trying. I really want to get healthy again and enjoy my healthy body before I get pregnant (unlike last time). I'd also like to not gain so much weight next time. I'd really like Logan to have a sibling within a couple years of age to him. I think about being pregnant and giving birth again, and it scares me to death. I got through it last time - but it was the hardest most painful thing I have ever gone through :( I know...I got a beautiful, healthy baby from it. But I feel like I am mentally scarred from it. No one knows what I went through after he came out. You may know if I told you - but you haven't experienced it. I still remember laying on the operating table shaking and hearing my OB say "I've never seen anything like this before." I have to hope that my next labor will not turn out how this one did. I almost want to ask if I can have a c-section. My OB said I would have been better off with a c-section with Logan. Too bad no one knew that before he came out!

Tomorrow is Friday, I'm looking forward to the weekend! Sarah and Jacque are coming over tomorrow afternoon. We are going to go to the mall - I know Gymboree is having a big sale. I wanted to get some 9 month clothes for Logan. He's almost 8 months and still wearing his 6 month clothes. But I know he is growing fast! I weighed him yesterday and he was 16lbs 2oz. I hope he's gaining enough weight. Looks like he is around 5th or 6th percentile. To me he looks very healthy. He's not skinny or sick looking. He looks like a chubby, happy baby!

Bath time is fun!